I Can't Hate You Anymore


An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream.
It drives you crazy,
I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in the frame,
But it couldn't save me.
How could we quit something we never even tried?
Well you still can't tell me why.

We built it up, to watch it fall,
Like we meant nothin' at all,
I gave and gave, the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, you stole my life,
Just to find what you're lookin' for,
But no matter how i try,
I can't hate you anymore.
I can't hate you anymore.

You're not the person that you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,
There's only so many tears that you can cry before
It drains the light right from your eyes

And I can't go on that way,
And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.
We built it up, to watch it fall,
Like we meant nothin' at all,
I gave and gave, the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, you stole my life,
Just to find what you're lookin' for,
But no matter how i try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight it slips right through you hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up, to watch it fall,
Like we meant nothin' at all,
I gave and gave, the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, you stole my life,
Just to find what you're lookin' for,
But no matter how i try,
I can't hate you anymore.

after all these while

everything has been said and done. xde apa lg yg tertinggal selain aku yg merana sorg2. xtau aku nk dscribe apa yg aku rasa skang ni. at this very moment, seriously, xtau perasaan mana yg lebih dominan. sakit ati, sayang, rasa nk lempang org, sume pn ada juga

setelah puas aku berusaha, akhirnya ini saja lah yg tertinggal untuk aku. and i 've to go though this alone. mmg ye, kwn2 sntiasa menyokong dan mendoakan aku, meminta aku jadi lebih tabah. mungkin sbb tabah ati jugakla aku harung dan aku telan semua yg menghancurkan jiwa aku. aku pegi jugak gathering dgn hati yg berat dan muka yg sgt kelat (serious aku xperasan it was so obvious masa tu. shit!)

dan untuk kesekian kalinya aku tetap made a fool out of myself,which at the end of the day aku jugak yg makan ati sorg2. aku pn xtau nape aku xdpt menahan diri dpd terus menjadi bodoh. tapi terasa teramatla bangang skali

i hope one fine day, i could laugh at all these mistakes that i did. betapa bodohnye aku membangangkan diri tapi org sket pn xheran. xseinci pn perasaannye terusik. hadoi. bangangnye ko ni payid

aku lepaskan dia pergi dgn hati yg berat. pergilah jauh2. pegila mana dia nk pegi. cuma aku xtau kalau dia come back to me (IF la kan?), adakah aku mampu untuk accept dia balik unconditionally mcmmana aku penah terima dia dulu.

but seriously, i should move on. dia dah berlari jauh dari aku. aku masih berdiri tegak kat situ, mengharap diaakan kembali. BANGANG! and the best part is, xsedikit pn aku terasa dihargai. hadoi. sudah la payid. gerakla kau dari situ. jgn ditunggu lg. jgn disia2kan ur precious love tu kpd org yg xmenghargai

aku sia2kan hati dan perasaan aku untuk org yg salah. but seperti kata2 yg aku selalu pegang, kita ditakdirkan untuk berjumpa ngn org yg salah, supaya setiap kesilapan yg penah kita buat masa ngn org yg salah tu xkan kita ulang lg bila kita jmpa org yg betul. and we will be a better person. sepanjang perjalanan hidup kita, we learn from our mistakes

and the greatest lesson i learnt from this relationship is SETIAP PATAH PERKATAAN TU HANYA VALID SEMASA DILAFAZKAN SAHAJA. esok lusa jgnla dituntut lg kata2 tu sbb 'that is how they felt masa derang ckp tu'. they really meant what they said, tapi masa tu je la kan. jgn ditanya mana pegi semua kata2 syg tu sbb jwpnnye adalah "jgn tanya, dia sndiri pn tatau mana pi dah"

haiyoh. tabahla payid mengharungi hari2 mendatang

***gila jiwang post ni

**boley i lupa mendedikasi ucapan terima kasey kpd kapal krn menganjurkan gath yg best itu. mintak hampun kapal! i did enjoyed it bersama geng2 yg haibat walaupun hatiku luka parah untuk kesekian kalinya