luahan rasa

what can i say? to make it short, my life is a living hell. evnthough org tanya, aku happy ke, aku tetap berdalih. pura2 je happy kut. bt i'm dead inside. hati aku mcm dah xmampu tersenyum. yg ada cuma sayu

ok. before i proceed any further, let me remind u dat sape yg xnk baca ttg luahan jiwa kacauku ini silala lawati blog org lain pula. jgn pulak pasni ckp aku mcm2, poyo la mcm aku sorg je ada masalah. blog aku, suke aku nk tulis apa pon. sape xnk baca, main jauh2

where shud i start? everything is a mess rite now. i'm broke, smp utang piutang pon dh keliling pinggang. nasib baik ada kwn2 yg memahami. klu aku pinjam ceti haram, nescaya xidup dah aku ari ni. harus nyawa diambil org dh. tapi pon, smp bila nk berhutang? lama2 org pon naik mls. aku xnk smp satu thp, org mula jauhkn diri dr aku sbb aku xberduit dan takut aku nk pnjam duit. bt wut can i do? aku dah berusaha sesungguh ati. cuma it seems like luck is not on my side. harapnye sebelum aku mati, aku smpat byr sume utang piutang aku. Tuhan, jgnla ambil nyawaku lg selagi aku xsmpat byr utang piutangku

my job sucks. n d worst part is, i might not even be paid pon for this month. keje buta je. see, i'm currently "working" wit a forex company, n my job is utk dptkan investor to trade in the forex market. cuma perjanjiannye, selagi aku xdptkn client, i'm not getting any offer letter or wutsoever frm the company. kiranya xde itam putih pon. xde bukti pon aku keje ngn derang ni. n i'm telling u, bkn senang nk dptkn org yg buta2 nk invest smp berpuluh ribu ringgit. n aku cuma ada 2,3 ari je lg. sial sgt

n to add up the misery, i'm facing all these crap by myself. yup, kpd yg ragu2dgn status aku, marila aku declare yg aku SINGLE ok. semua cerita partner baru tu anggapla gosip semata2. hakikatnye aku masih sndiri. mlm2ku masih sunyi. yg ada cuma kenangan je. ntahla. it's not that i'm not ready to love anybody. it's juz dat aku xjmpa lg org yg sesuai. atau aku yg masih sangsi dgn keikhlasan org. ye la, aftr my break up, how cn sumone convince me dat dia betul2 ikhlas syg aku sedangkan aku penah bg sepenuh kepercayaan pd org yg aku syg, only to be cheated, to be lied to, to be betrayed at the end of the day. ntahla. ada org penah pggil aku pathetic. n now, aku rasa mcm sial sgt sbb i started to believe it. mungkin ye, aku sgt pathetic pon.

shit. y is nothing in this world going in my way. Tuhan. ringankanla ujianMu. hambaMu ini bagai xtertanggung lg

over you - daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

selamat ari raya to all readers. best raya? hehe. well, i'm back dgn update yg xseberapa

my raya was fine. sama la mcm raya2 thn lepas. xde beza. masih rumah yg sama dikunjungi, masih rutin yang sama, masih makanan yg sama dan berjumpa org2 yg sama. cuma bezanya mungkin thn ni aku dah mula beli bj raya sndiri (2 pasang lagi) dan aku mula bg duit raya. hehe. terrer x, xde keje pon bg duit raya kau. harus pas raya ni ai pose balik

gigil tgn aku masa nk isi duit lam sampul tu. xtau la nape yg nervous sgt. nervous sbb duit nk kuar kut. hehe. tapi melihat kegembiraan di wajah2 mereka yg menerima duit raya tu, barula aku phm apa ertinya keseronokan memberi ni

eisy.. tetiba aku terblank. baru la aku sedar, raya aku thn ni xdela sebest mana pon nk diceritakan. hehe. xpela

kpd yg masih mood nk beraya, selamat hari raya..maaf zahir dan batin. kita bersiaran lagi bila aku dah ada idea nnt ye

ni kes mkn lemang byk sgtla kut. trus beku otak. huhu