bila nak saksi

Wajahmu kerap kumimpi
Wajahmu sering kupuja
Buatku terasa sepi

Kala ku bukakan mata
Kau masih belumpun kupunya
Rinduku masih kau tak peka

Cintamu kerap kumimpi
Cintamu sering kudamba
Buatku terasa sedih

Kala ku bukakan mata
Kau masih belumpun kudakap
Rinduku masih kau tak singkap

Bila nak saksi kau datang terkulai?
Bila nak saksi kau datang membelai?
Bila nak saksi cintaku sampai?

Dirimu kerap ku mimpi
Dirimu sering ku khayal
Aku angan-angankan kau dapat bersama
Nyatakan cinta yang terpendam
Membina istana tersergam

Bila nak saksi kau datang terkulai?
Bila nak saksi kau datang membelai?
Bila nak saksi cintaku sampai?

Kau masih belumpun kupunya
Rinduku masih kau tak peka

Bila nak saksi kau datang terkulai?
Bila nak saksi kau datang membelai?
Bila nak saksi cintaku sampai?
Bila nak saksi cintamu kugapai?

Dirimu kerap ku mimpi
Dirimu sering ku khayal
Aku angan-angankan

if only

Well every single time I see you I start to feel this way
It makes me wonder if I am ever gonna feel this way again.
There's a picture
tearin
in the back of my head
I see it over and over
I wanna hold you and love you
In my arms and then
I wanna need you
cuz I need to be with you till the end
Then I hear myself reply "You've got to
hold it in" this time tonight

If only I had the guts to feel this way,
if only you'd look at me and
want to stay, if only I could take you in my
arms and say, I won't go cuz I
need you

Sit here waiting, wondering, hoping that I'll make this right
Cuz all I think about is your hands, your
face and all these lonely nights
There's a feeling screaming in the back of my head
Saying it over and over
I wanna hold you and love you
In my arms and then
I wanna need you
cuz I need to be with you till the end
Then I hear myself reply "She'll never
let you in" this time tonight

If only I had the guts to feel this way, if
only you'd look at me and wanna
stay, if only I could take you in my arms and
say, I won't go cuz I need you
I wanna hear you say it'll always be this way

And we'll be hand in hand for everynight and everyday
I wanna scream and shout cuz rules are never doubt
And all I care about is you and me and us and now
If only I had the guts to feel this way, if
only you'd look at me and wanna
stay, if only I could take you in my arms and
say, I won't go cuz I need you

Please don't go cause I need you now
Yeah. Cuz I need you
If only, yeah cuz I need you now
If only cuz I need you, I need you
If only , cuz I need you
If only cuz I need you
If only, yeah, if only...I need you now....yeah

arjuna

Sudah kudaki gunung tertinggi
Hanya untuk mencari dimana dirimu
Sudah kujelajahi isi bumi
Hanya untuk dapat hidup bersamamu

Sudah kuarungi laut samudera
Hanya untuk mencari tempat berlabuhmu
Tapi semakin jauh ku mencari
Cinta semakin aku tak mengerti

Akulah Arjuna
Yang mencari cinta
Wahai wanita
Cintailah aku

Mungkin kutemui cinta sejati
Saat aku hembuskan nafas terakhirku
Mungkin cinta sejati memang tak ada
Dalam cerita kehidupan ini

my pursuit of happiness

dah lama sbnanye aku nk buat posting ni. cuma masa je yg xbape sesuai (dan xmengizinkan pon sbnanye). i'm so greatful for what i am right now, where i stand, and what i do now. aku terlalu amat bersyukur. n i know, this is juz a beginning of a wonderful journey

i went thru a lot sebelum aku berada di sini. not dat kejayaan aku sgt besar pon skrg. i know carrerwise, aku xdela sehebat mana.tp bl tgk apa yg aku accomplish skang, n looking back to where n who i use to be a few months ago, i know i am allowed to be a little bit proud of myself

akula penganggur terhormat dulu. ada degree setinggi gunung pon, tapi merempat di jalanan. aku keje, tapi kuli batak pon org byr gaji. aku penah pegi ofis xmakan, xminum apa pon sbb xde duit. aku penah jln kaki dr pasar seni ke chow kit setiap hari untuk berbulan2 sbb aku xcukup duit nk byr tambang bas. aku penah mengemis duit org nk buat blanja tambang bus dgn alasan wallet lupa la, wallet kene kebas la. dan bila lapar sgt, kdg2 aku g kat supermarket dgn harapan ada la org yg bg sample makanan or minuman percuma tu. makanan tu la yg sambung nyawa aku

sungguh, masa aku study dlu, aku xpenah terbayang hidup aku akan end up smp camtu skali. dan bila dikenangkan duit yg aku bazirkan dulu, sakit ati lak rasa. dlu aku xde hal takat nk blanja mkn rm 20 lebih for 1 stupid meal. sedangkan rm20 tu boleh buat smp 6 meal kdg2 utk aku. tu xmasuk lg ngn duit2 lain. bila kenang2 balik, hadui. menyesal gile. terasa gak kalau la leh kutip balik duit yg ditabur2 dlu. hehe.

bt im so greatful, coz along the way, aku jmpa dan kenal org2 yg betul2 digelar kawan. org2 yg terima aku seadanya aku, tanpa syarat. org2 yg xpenah jemu tlg aku, be it financially ke, morally ke. sungguh, smp mati aku kenang budi derang ni. org2 yg terus sambung nyawa dan semangat aku untuk terus hidup

and i know. my humble beginning is what gonna keep my feet grounded when i reach the sky 1 day. i know i can be successful 1 day. and apa yg aku ada skang is juz a beginning. sungguh aku ckp, the moment aku draw may first salary for the first time in 7 months, aku terasa mcm gigil sket. xterucap syukur aku bila nmpk duit dlm akaun ada la 4 angka instead of singgit tiga ploh nam sen je mcm selalu. aku tau ketika itu, this is my turning point. syukur, Alhamdulillah

haluuu.... salam siaran semua. lama suda aku menghilang kan. hehe. ada yg merindu kah? marilah aku ubati kerinduan korg itew ye.

i'll juz make this short n sweet as my coallegue kejap lg mau masuk keje. aku mls sket kang derang bibodi lak nk tau apa aku tulis kan.

im ok rite now. keje ok. nnt la aku cite psl keje k. cuma yg aku bengang tu boleh blog aku ni di block access nye oleh server kat sini. yg peliknye blogger xblock lak. so kaedah nye aku hanya boleh tulis tapi xleh baca blog sndiri. boley gitu? so much of writing for my own pleasure kan? haha. skang terpaksa la aku write for korg nye pleasure lak. hehe

bt anyways, everything is running smoothly now. alhamdulillah. nntla kite cite pjg k

ok. gtg. makcik2 ni dah masuk dah. nantikan comeback ai ke persada pemblogan. hahaha


***oh yeah. sape2 yg tggl msg kat cbox tu, sori la ye. ai xleh nk baca pon. klu korg nk chat sesama sndiri tu boleh la. hehe